Wednesday 14th July 2021 (Cancer Journal 11) ⋆ Fabienne S. Morgana

Image of number 11 in a rainbow, geometric prism style. — Cancer Journal 11

What I shared on Facebook on Wednesday 14th July 2021 as my Cancer Journal Number 11.

These cancer journals were my ongoing strategy of keeping people up to date without having to share the same information again and again. I would write, and then I would get specific friends to act as beta readers, and that was helpful. Then I would post to Facebook, send the same message by email, What’s App, SMS, etc. It saved a lot of emotional energy for me, and that was becoming vital.

⭐ Cancer Journal ⭐

Wednesday 14th July 2021 (11)

Pale woman with surgical cap wrapped in white hospital blanket - she has nasal prongs in place and looks groggy. — Fresh out of surgery

Hello from the other side! 😁 (Cancer Journal 11)

I am happily on 7 South East Bed 25; have the best twinnie in my roomie 🤩

Lymph Nodes

They removed five lymph nodes on the left side, six on the right side, and it will be two weeks until we get those results and from there, decisions will be made around Chemo and / or Radiotherapy etc.

Gratitude

I’m so grateful for all the messages of support and for the prayers, ritual, and well wishes. I have masses being said for me, and candles being lit for me, and friends dancing for me, going for meditative walks for me; all manner of emotional, spiritual, psychological care happening, and I feel very cherished.

Reminders

🚫 please be mindful of your language; this is not a battle or a war, this is my lived experience. Please review the boundaries I set out in my pinned post.

⛔ I also do not wish to discuss this in terms of “the loss of my breasts” – my breasts have been reconstructed, so they’re mine.

The ensuing reconstruction, and associated breast reduction will hopefully provide a whole heap of benefits in terms of my neck, shoulders, and back as well.

🔥 Like twin Phoenixes, they will rise to new points of glory, 😉!

✅ I’m very happy with the process, the care, and the results so far.

Pale woman, wearing green flannelette sleep shirt with bee / beehive / honeycomb pattern. Also wearing green and gold silk head cap and nasal prongs. — The day after surgery

Boundaries

‼️ I honestly don’t know what my emotional landscape is going to be over the next month, so I will simply say this:

⛔ I anticipate being very emotionally unavailable, so if I am insensitive or fail to engage, apologies in advance, but right now, my focus is on me, my self care, and the care of my household.

🚫 Once home, I may well welcome visitors again, but I’ll let you know – I’m probably only going to up to see one person a day at most, and it will typically be in the afternoons I suspect. Again, please stay away if you or anyone close to you are sick or have been unwell in the last 14 – 21 days.

💣 A friend raised Delta varient hot spots; so just check them as well, because if you have been to a Delta variant hot spot, we should skip any visits just to be safe. X

📍 I have pinned the post with the announcement about my diagnosis and the boundaries I want to work with, so if this post is the first you have seen, please refer to that pinned post.

⭐ This is the eleventh of my Cancer Journal entries, if you are interested in the others, I have put links in at the bottom of this post.

🌹 Be kind, Gentle Creatures, tend your gardens, take time to eat the roses, and walk your boundaries.

❗ Check your breasts, check your testicles.

Pale woman wearing pink flannelette sleep shirt patterned with dachshunds and a gold and green silk sleep cap. — Day two post surgery – Cancer Journal 11 (I have my colour back in this photo!)

Self checks

Ensure that you are vigilant around your self-examination. Train yourself to check your breasts/testicles routinely, and monitor your bowel habits and your urine output. These are our body’s early warning signs, and we don’t have a lot of awareness of them.

⭐ Cancer Journal ⭐

Wednesday 14th July 2021 (11)

Lymph Nodes

Gratitude

Reminders

Boundaries

Self checks

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