Surreal external 'normal' life vs internal deciding strategies and planning Whilst in the holding pattern of waiting for results, 'normal' life continued on the kind of external and public levels. On the internal and private level, I was doing a lot of work in terms of priming myself, deciding strategies and planning some management techniques. It was quite surreal in many ways. I kept working, the house we were renting had been put on the market and our first open for inspection was ... continue reading...
The Camus Question of Choice
Dedicated in jest, but with great love, to my friend who loathes Camus. *Content / Trigger Warning* This blog contains discussions of / about depression, suicidal ideation, assisted dying (voluntarily euthanasia), end of life and care plans. The week between and choices I had a week between the follow-up tests and my follow-up appointment. The follow-up appointment was to discuss the results of the tests. As I said in the last blog post, I had a lot to think about. I'm going ... continue reading...
The Follow-up Tests
On Thursday, 22nd April 2021, I attended the Eastern Health Breast and Cancer Centre at Maroondah Hospital. Morning thoughts That morning, I spent some time taking some photos of my breasts. I had a premonition of sorts that my relationship with them was about to become more complex. Breast cancer impacts your relationship with your body on so many levels. I'm very grateful that I took those photos. Some of them are living on the fridges of Beloveds across the country, lol! A ... continue reading...
The phone call.
In the late afternoon on Wednesday 20th April 2021, I got a phone call from BreastScreen Australia. I had been for my first ever mammogram on April 06th at the age of 50 years (and 9 months), and they told me I should have the results within two weeks. I was kind of expecting that would be a letter - you know the type: "Thank you Ms Morgana, for your attendance to our clinic. Your tests are clear, see you in two years". This was not that. This was "Your mammogram was inconclusive ... continue reading...
Milestones
100 appointments! It's kind of a milestone; my physiotherapy appointment yesterday was my 100th medical cancer related appointment since my first mammogram on the 06th April last year. It's *a lot*: that's basically an appointment every 3 - 4 days. I started counting when I started feeling overwhelmed by all the appointments and it became a way for me to reassure myself that the reason I seemed to constantly have appointments is because, well, I did / do constantly have ... continue reading...
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